Saturday, June 19

The world turns

Well here I am again, popping up when you least expect it. Life is no less busy, the temporary job I was doing was extended another four weeks, that four weeks is up next Friday but they don’t seem to have any plans to let me go. 

I’m a bit conflicted about it all, I like working there even though the work is not what I normally do.  I know it won’t challenge me for long (it doesn’t really challenge me now but it’s interesting enough to hold my attention).   It’s a nice working environment and probably has some potential for future work that is more in my field.   However I sometimes can’t help feeling I’m just ‘settling’ for something less than I am capable of and avoiding stepping out into the world and actually doing something I want to do.

One of the reasons I haven’t been blogging is that my life is just full of this incessant internal dialogue of whining and moaning and indecision and it seems grossly unfair to inflict others with it.  I bore myself, it certainly wouldn’t be entertaining for anyone else.

So I’ll continue my inner debate and occasionally pop by to let you know I’m still alive.

In the meantime if anyone has any idea how I can get my mojo back I’m all ears.

 

13 comments:

Z said...

Sometimes, explaining a situation to someone clarifies it to myself. So maybe talking -writing, that is - it out will help.

Caitlin said...

I think you may be right Z, I was just thinking yesterday after writing that post that I might be getting it the wrong way round - instead of not blogging maybe I SHOULD be blogging.

Of course that may mean sacrificing my blog friends' sanity while I spend post after post debating my choices, changing my mind and generally being a pain in the arse.

Apologising in advance. xx

Dave said...

What makes you think that any of your readers are sane?

laoi gaul~williams /I\ said...

hello lovely!
i agree with Z (well and Dave too actually!)
writing gets it all out and i often feel so much better after a good old moan and often it provides a source of unintentional inspiration~i have a good old 'honest' blog this morning and feel so much better~and no less insane :D
xlxlxl

Z said...

And we won't be bored and we will be sympathetic. Or possibly bracing.

Caitlin said...

That's so true Dave, I know none of you are sane...that's what I love best about you all.

Thanks Laoi, of course you're absolutely right...I need to just get it all out on the page (screen) and see what sense I (and you)can make of it.

I mean if you can't subject your blog friends to your craziness then what's the point in blogging? :-D

Caitlin said...

Bracing is good Z.

laoi gaul~williams /I\ said...

ahem! please go and see my blog young lady ;)

Leanne said...

i agree with all of the above comments too, just keep plodding along. spilling it all out and you will be ok. thats what most of us do!

Leanne x

miss*R said...

I agree with Dave.. we are all loopy, I reckon. I have been blogging for quite a few years and let me tell you at one stage I was Queen of the Moaners... but blogging & comments helped me sort out those very voices in the head that you say you have..
I love to read stuff that is normal.. whatever the hell that is.

Caitlin said...

'Queen of the moaners' that cracked me up Robyn. I love you and I love your blog. XX

miss*R said...

aww thanks xo but it is true.. and once, someone emailed me and told me that my blog was too negative all the time and that they could not visit again... pfffft to them I said.
life ain't all pretty and fluffy.. so why pretend it is.. THAT is when people become insane!!!
[good to be in touch again xo]

Caitlin said...

Why do people feel the need to be so rude? If they don't like don't read it. Simple.

Dave has got that covered - on his sidebar it says "If you don't like something you read here, then please don't be offended. After all, it's only a blog. Just stop reading it."

I love that (and I'm probably in trouble now for quoting from his blog without permission). :-)