Thursday, January 15

Post blogday blues

For some reason today I'm feeling a little flat (in the emotional sense). It isn't full blown depression just a general feeling of discontent, overwhelm, pointlessness and frustration (oh, is that all?). I'm tired, that doesn't help. I'm trying to remain excited about the 'new year', maintaining enthusiasm for my plans and goals but some days it feels as though nothing works.

What I am coming to understand is that whenever I feel this way it's usually about work. It's never about my family, that's all good, it's not about my health, it's occasionally about homesickness, sometimes it's frustration about our lack of progress with the renovation. But the real moping, whining, complaining stuff is all about work.

Obviously I'm a slow learner because it's taken me this long to realise that it's a major source of unhappiness for me. Seems I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

Now I just have to decide what to do about it.




6 comments:

Cathy said...

:( What do you do for work Caitlin?

I know the solution - because I was in this exact same predicament about 9 years ago! I quit my job (a big thing considering I was just married and had studied for
5+ years for my degree), started doing casual work as a teacher then went back to uni and got my teaching diploma! I haven't looked back! Sooooooo glad I took the leap!

Life's too short to spend most of it miserable! Follow your heart...

Caitlin said...

I have a degree in Adult and Vocational Education and until 18 months ago I was a Voc Ed lecturer (teaching management and business) Currently I'm freelancing as a business consultant. I'm bored with 'business'.

On the side I also teach meditation and some personal and career development stuff at a women's community centre.

None of this thrills me. I need a change. I've thought a lot about teaching, I'd be interested in hearing how you made the transition.

Dave said...

I haven't decided to grow up yet, far less decide what I'm going to do when that happens.

Cathy said...

I did it through the Catholic Education Office. Just applied for a teaching number/PIN. The subjects I had done in my arts degree I think allowed me to get one. Then I just sent my resume to a bunch of local schools. I'll never forget my first day as a casual - I had never taught a day in my life, I had no training and I was assigned to do RFF (release from face to face teaching) so basically I had half the classes in the school...plus there was a fire drill that day!! lol I don't know how I summoned up the courage to keep going. Might blog about this one day :)

Caitlin said...

Personally I suspect 'growing up' is over-rated Dave. I think if it hasn't happened by now it's not going to.

Thanks for that Cathy, I think you should definitely blog about that. What level do you teach? Are you still with Catholic Ed? What did you do before teaching? Am I being nosey? Should we continue this by email? :-)

I'll shut up now.

Cathy said...

lol no that's fine. yes, still with catholic ed - I teach a year 3 class part-time (started part-time after having the boys). I used to be a solicitor - how laughable is that?! it sounds funny even to me now! I barely remember a thing I learnt now - the brain must block unpleasantness :)